Oprah says… “Find a way to do what you love & get paid for it.” I do agree. However… I, like you, LOVE to write. But somewhere along the hustle and bustle… I also feel like my mojo is lost. My old blogs were all for fun. Not really delving into the personal sides of my life. I took a break. Came back w/ more personal blogs… which is a problem for someone who actually thrives on being private; and now, I can’t seem to find the balance in my blogs. So… I’ve stopped – once again. *le sigh*

I got laid off from my gig. 2nd layoff. And although I was actually looking forward to being free of Corporate America… some self reflection has me toying with the notion of going back for a minute. My plan B (we’ll discuss offline) is currently my plan A… but I’ve realized that the layoff/ self reflection has afforded me the luxury of the ultimate job of all: Working on improving ME! I went back and read ALL of my blogs fro 2004 and realized a lot of things I wanted, but never went after. A lot of things I started, but never finished. A lot of what I like(d), dislike(d), love(d) & cherish(ed) about myself. And sadly, I can admit that I overlooked a large portion of my own happiness – in order to help someone else seek their own. And that was just no longer okay.

So ultimately… I’m on a happiness search. I do know that my caring & strength are both my upswing & my downfall – as I can be “too much” of either. But, I also know that it’s never too late to go back & make a new start to create a new ending. Kudos to those who have the courage & faith to step out of what’s familiar & into something they love. I don’t believe in the term: fake it ’til you make it, per se… but, I DO believe in the one that says: FAITH it ’til you make it. I do know I care in aiding in the betterment of people. I’m figuring out how to incorporate that into my life in ways that I no longer hinder my own growth. =o)

Good to see you writing again. Sorry about the length. May see you in ATL, as that’s one of my top choices of bouncing to.

PS. TheJaydedNYer should have registered/tried out to be the 1st MTVTJ. It’s a tweeting position. The contest is going on now… and the position pays: $100k a year. I know this contest is already in progress… but since there’s going to be 1, I’m sure that there will be others in the future.

But I feel you. Do something you can feel good about. Otherwise you are taking years off your life.

But seriously, I’ve been looking into non-profit organizations lately for work. I figure: If I must be chained to a desk, at least let it be for the benefit of the homeless or baby seals or the environment.